Music Monday: I Am Beautiful

I stopped watching American Idol many many years ago.  But about a year and a half ago, I got free tickets from Big Brothers/Big Sisters to take my Little Sister to the AI concert.  At the time, I was at a place where I needed to hear that I was beautiful and wonderful, and it didn't matter what anyone else thought... and so when Candice Glover sang this song, it really struck a chord with me.  Recently, I have pulled out a playlist with this on it.  Evie has begun to sing along with it.  It brings such joy to my heart to hear my five-year-old in the back seat belting out, "I am beautiful and wonderful..." and I keep hoping that she will carry that message with her for the rest of her life. 

 

And then I listen to the rest of the words, where the singer is referencing someone who is putting her down and hurting her (probably meant to be a boyfriend in a bad relationship), and I think of how applicable this could be for most foster children.  (No matter all the crazy stuff that has happened with Evie's family, I have always believed that she was at least EMOTIONALLY well-cared for at her home.)  I hope that every child who I have in my care will come to believe that they are "beautiful and wonderful" and "it don't matter that [they're] not perfect"; that they are "worth every tear and every scar", and that they "deserve better things."  

 

 

You say I sound silly when I laugh real loud
Talk about my day and you tune me out
You keep telling me lies to make things worse
But I don’t hear you
‘Cause I’m listening to his words

And he says I am beautiful
And wonderful
It don’t matter that I’m not perfect
I am beautiful
I’m not alone
And in his eyes I’m so worth it
I’m worth every tear
And every scar
And even when you say I’m not
He says I’m beautiful

You say I’ll never be good enough
Knock me down
Won’t help me up
And you always say the right thing to make me hurt
But I don’t hear you
‘Cause I’m listening to his words

And he says I am beautiful
And wonderful
It don’t matter that I’m not perfect
I am beautiful
I’m not alone
And in his eyes I’m so worth it
I’m worth every tear
And every scar
And even when you say I’m not
He says I’m beautiful

And I deserve better things
He says he understands
I got to do whats right for me

And he says I am beautiful
And wonderful
It don’t matter that I’m not perfect
I am beautiful
I’m not alone
And in his eyes I’m so worth it
I’m worth every tear
And every scar
And even when you say I’m not
He says I’m beautiful
He says
He says
I’m beautiful
And I’m worth every tear
And every scar
And even when you say I’m not
He says I’m beautiful